Glad to see you here! Your right about wondering if the organization is part of Satan's plans! I read Rutherford's book called Jehovah and was shocked! along with Revelation Its Grand Climax Is At Hand.
They take away the torture stake of Jesus and placed it with WTBTS. Although they do believe in the stake, cross
Anyone who goes door to door with the WT is taking the place of Jesus! because they say they are the man with the Secretary's Inkhorn who marked people during Ezekiel's time, once again apply past vision to themselves. But that is not going to be the case in end times only Jesus and Jehovah will mark people with help from the apostles who will judge the 144,000.
Who chooses the 144,000 God or WTBTS? They keep records of who is the 144,000 and doubt anyone who partakes.
Jesus said that unless you eat my flesh (bread) and drink my blood (wine) you can not have eternal life! Who else does not want you to have eternal life? Satan! How many times did Jesus make that commandment? I believe it was four of five times. As far as I am concerned it is just as important as your baptism!
So you are right!
Venting your disappointment is a healthy outlet! WELCOME.